Sunday, October 22, 2006

Personal discoveries and more questions to go?

For me now, spirituality is praying for goodness and goodness alone, it washes away waste, dust, mud, and all the plethora of germs and useless worldly pleasures, spiritually is creating the principled ethics that I make my decisions from, it trims away the unnecessary baggage that freedom can bring upon me, this total freedom which gave me the ability to o discover so many things, but it could have been pricey. Without conscious, and an awakened heart, one will go lost at the bottom of worldly pleasures, and the more one gets of this pleasure, the more empty it he/she would feel, and the more hardened the heart it would feel, while the soul, it would complain that it can not go any further, it is still stationed, idle, doing nothing, has no air, nothing in, there is no food, gas, and real stimulation to run its engine.
I have always wondered, why Churches, Mosques, Synagogues, and Temples, why Imams, Clerks, Popes, Shamans?
Why religion, why believe?
And why spirituality?

Religions and their existences as the lady that gave birth to spirituality, but not! The human ardent search for the endless questions of existence, and the urgent human need to fill the void inside, and not to get lost in so many seemingly amicable human emotions, which spirituality can by itself end all the misery of going down to the bottom. Spirituality is the only one responsible for discovering higher ideals, from these higher ideals; we get morality, and then the human’s first honest effort to write down these discoveries in books hence religions, but then again, human can pervert, pervert all, therefore books are not reliable in my books, and I need to question even more.
This spirituality realizes a higher being, it is discovered, before I called it my watch angels, and they can be the opposite for the purposes of enlightenment, ie. You do a bad dead, something bad in return will happen to you, although not the case all the time.
History, also teaches us that we humans have always searched for the creator and the progress of this discovery became into monotheist belief, it is rather funny how humans made statues symbolizing or believing that it is, it, god or the goddess. Going monotheist, is the ultimate result of finding the creator, and it is also, the ultimate power of human strength to communicate with god or the natural spirit of this universe.

I was an agnostic, I did not believe in any absolute truth, and I could not also, omit god’s existence, but I named god, a natural power that with all my human senses I can not explain.
But now, I just made a simple substitution, unknowingness became believing in 3ilm il ghayb, and now, I believe in some sort of karma, and other godly way of communication to us, to enlighten us.
I dunno, I believe right now, in the spiritual discoveries of religions, I believe in some of the moral commandments (golden rule) they have discovered through spirituality, yet they are changeable as we all still in a spiritual progress. I definitely have problems with the conventional idea of Hell and Heaven, as I believe that doing good in order to go to heave is the downfall of morality itself, I believe in discovering goodness and to be closer to god.

I still have more questions, I have read some few soras from the Quran, I did find what I needed in some parts, whilst, some others, I did not need, want or believe.
I enjoy reading, surat al fati7a, and it means a lot to me, also, sorat al fala8 and nas, however, I still have problems with more sorats. I am also, intending to read other religions; I need to know more about Christianity, and Buddhism.
I would say that, I can be as spiritual as I want to be, in any religion or believe I feel like, I dunno, if that makes be a bahai, I really don’t know and I don’t care if my believes don’t subscribe to whatever mainstream religion.
But in the time being, I try my best to be good, I say hamdulah, astaghfurulah, and la7awola wala 8uwat ila bilah, and I feel the sakeena (peace).


Salam

5 comments:

programmer craig said...

I think you're on the right track, Gilgamish. I almost lost myb faith in God a long time ago, because even thjough I had read the Bible cover to cover many times, I saw too many devout Christians acting in a most un-Christian manner, and I heard too many hateful things being said in Church. I tried a new approach when I had some difficulties (understatement!) after my divorce. I read just the New Testament (NT is only the teachings of Jesus) and tried to look at the meaning - the concepts Jesus was trying to convey - without worrying too much about the WORDS. I think I came to "see the light" - or at least, catch a glimmer of it!

My conclusion - it's really all about Love and Hate. If you are motivated by love for your fellow man, you will do good work. Not because you expect to be rewarded, in this life or the next, but simply because you want the best for people, when you love them. I recognize that truth now (and I think it's a universal truth not specific to any religion) but recognizing hasn't made it easy for me to put it in practice! I'm working on it :)

I could write a lot more about what I've come to believe, but that's the short version.

I also have problems with the concept of Heaven and Hell. I don't think those concepts are literal. I think they are figurative. An explanation that human beings could understand, because the concept of an afterlife is obviously soemthing no living human being can describe or comprehend.

Gilgamish said...

Hi PC,

"I saw too many devout Christians acting in a most un-Christian manner,"

when i read this, i remembered my mom's saying "never measure religion against people", we always used to have these debates.She has a point, but in the same time, where is the effect of the supposed religion?
but u know what, it is all personal!

"I think I came to "see the light" - or at least, catch a glimmer of it!"

:)

"Not because you expect to be rewarded, in this life or the next, but simply because you want the best for people, when you love them."

that is something i totally agree with.


"I recognize that truth now (and I think it's a universal truth not specific to any religion)"

i think it is specific for the people the seek goodness and peace. :)


"I also have problems with the concept of Heaven and Hell. I don't think those concepts are literal. I think they are figurative. An explanation that human beings could understand, because the concept of an afterlife is obviously soemthing no living human being can describe or comprehend. "


heaven and hell work wonders for some people, heaven and hell type of thinking really do make some people do good deeds, not everyone can do great amound of goodness when they are astray in the anrachic realm. alot of ppl need rules i suppose, i think thats why organized religion has had some effect until our current day.

i still believe in some sort of punishment though, but definitely not in the way religion describes it, i agree with you, our human capacity can not define absolute terms...but i k now if i die today, it will die a peaceful death, i did not hurt anyone,and if i did, i would rather apologize thank god, also, i believe that punishment is also here in our world, sometimes i mistake life as hell , nah i am an optimistic person, but it can be hell if ppl are hell-like, u know what i mean :D now i am starting to blab,,,,take care :)

neurotic_wife said...

Hey Gilgamish, you remind me of myself. I too can adapt. Its nice to read abt the different beliefs out there, and try to understand them. I read about Buddhism when I was at college, and I fell inlove with it. Its all about peace of the soul. Yet inorder for me to go on with life, I have to believe and in God I do. But it always boggled my mind how many athiests I met, know so much abt all religeons, yet they choose not to believe in any...

The Eyewitness said...

May god enlighten your heart with his love, enlighten your soul with his peace, and elighten your way his guidness. I liked reading your experience a lot.

Virgin Man said...

spirituality is the only one responsible for discovering higher ideals, from these higher ideals; we get morality

I'm a Bright who didn't and never believes in supernatural elements. Where am I getting morality from? For sure there's no relation between morality and religion. In fact, religion corrupt inquiring my and distort reality. I suggest you read some books from Dr. Richard Dawkins